breaking the news to my family was hard. When we went home I just held on to my dad and cried I told him through my tears that the baby was gone. He didn't kno what to say he just told me everything would be ok and that I would have another baby. I just kept saying I want this baby.
after not leaving my bed for days I decided to face the world not only for me and my baby but for cris. He needed me to be strong. I kno it hurt him not seeing how hurt I was and not being able to take it all away. I kno all of this was hard for him too. But he told me he had to be the strong one. If not what would we do if we let this destroy us both.
I think the hardest part was that my brother in laws wife was pregnant at the same time. And I hated when she would bring up her baby stuff. The wound was still to fresh. Then she had the nerve to get mad at me for not going to her babyshower (which she had her revenge by not coming to mine last month)it was hard enough for me to buy her present. I didn't want to think that I should be buying something for my baby too but that thought never left my mind. I was happy for her don't get me wrong every baby is a blessing. But it would have been a horrible experience for me.
I'm just lucky to have a wonderful husband who understood how I felt and has help me soooo much.
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