breaking the news to my family was hard. When we went home I just held on to my dad and cried I told him through my tears that the baby was gone. He didn't kno what to say he just told me everything would be ok and that I would have another baby. I just kept saying I want this baby.
after not leaving my bed for days I decided to face the world not only for me and my baby but for cris. He needed me to be strong. I kno it hurt him not seeing how hurt I was and not being able to take it all away. I kno all of this was hard for him too. But he told me he had to be the strong one. If not what would we do if we let this destroy us both.
I think the hardest part was that my brother in laws wife was pregnant at the same time. And I hated when she would bring up her baby stuff. The wound was still to fresh. Then she had the nerve to get mad at me for not going to her babyshower (which she had her revenge by not coming to mine last month)it was hard enough for me to buy her present. I didn't want to think that I should be buying something for my baby too but that thought never left my mind. I was happy for her don't get me wrong every baby is a blessing. But it would have been a horrible experience for me.
I'm just lucky to have a wonderful husband who understood how I felt and has help me soooo much.
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Thursday, June 23, 2011
my heart grew and broke in a million pieces.
my name is karla fernandez. I am currently 33 weeks pregnant
I am starting this blog to show my son when he grows up so he understand all that his parents went through before he blessed our lifes. My husband (cristhian) and I have been through alot but to understand why this pregnancy is so exciting for us and why we can't wait to hold our baby you need to learn about the hardest thing we have gone through but he proved that we can do anything if we have each other.
last year in feb I received the news that I had a little miracle growing inside me. I was scared but really excited. I was scare to tell my parents but after the news they were exited. Their first grandchild.
on april 1st i went in for my dr appointment. It was my first ultrasound. As the dr set everything up and i stared to see everything on the screen and Cristhian recording on his phone we waited for the dr to say something but for the longest time she was quiet. She said we had to go to the main hospital for another ultrasound. My heart dropped. I knew something was wrong. I couldn't stop crying. Cristhian tried to be optimistic by saying everything will be ok.
as we headed to the hospital i just had a lump in my throat that couldnt go away.
after the ultrasound was over still not a word. the nurse had called my dr and she was on the phone. She told me what I feared the most. there wasnt a heart beat. our baby was now in heaven. I didn't even have to say anything to Cris. He just dropped his head and cried.
I am starting this blog to show my son when he grows up so he understand all that his parents went through before he blessed our lifes. My husband (cristhian) and I have been through alot but to understand why this pregnancy is so exciting for us and why we can't wait to hold our baby you need to learn about the hardest thing we have gone through but he proved that we can do anything if we have each other.
last year in feb I received the news that I had a little miracle growing inside me. I was scared but really excited. I was scare to tell my parents but after the news they were exited. Their first grandchild.
on april 1st i went in for my dr appointment. It was my first ultrasound. As the dr set everything up and i stared to see everything on the screen and Cristhian recording on his phone we waited for the dr to say something but for the longest time she was quiet. She said we had to go to the main hospital for another ultrasound. My heart dropped. I knew something was wrong. I couldn't stop crying. Cristhian tried to be optimistic by saying everything will be ok.
as we headed to the hospital i just had a lump in my throat that couldnt go away.
after the ultrasound was over still not a word. the nurse had called my dr and she was on the phone. She told me what I feared the most. there wasnt a heart beat. our baby was now in heaven. I didn't even have to say anything to Cris. He just dropped his head and cried.
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